January 2010 Happy New Year!

Well we find ourselves on our journey 4 years going on 5 years now waiting for Jailyn. Boy we never bargained for the wait to be so long. We had a blessed holiday with family not the norm as Katie and Billy spent it in New Jersey with Billy's family and Scott in Japan. So we celebrated with both sides of our families on Christmas eve (Thornbury) and Christmas day (Mike and I in the morning and the Comleys that afternoon. And then with Katie and Billy after Christmas. We will be mailing a Christmas care package once Scott is settled and we have an address for Scott in Japan. We believe this next year will tell mid year if we will get Jailyn in 2010 or now into 2011. The website did move 3 days late in December and now they are finally into April 3, 2006. Rumors are that they will finish April this summer and onto May and then June later in the year or early 2011. I question this time frame as usual and feel it can not get any worse finally. I lost it before the holidays with the reality upon us that Christmas 2009 just may not be our last without Jailyn that we may have to go another Christmas. It brings such sadness and tremendous grief as the holidays are about Family. Family is the desire of my heart to call my very own. I want my own child with Mike to love, raise and guide and give the wings she needs for a happy life she is so deserving. So many blessings to be thankful and grateful for the life we share and not to look at what we do not have at this time that feels so unfair. So why us I have asked so many times that I have turned to why not us .....Gods plan is bigger and better than we can comprehend and imagine as HE WILL GIVE US THE DESIRES OF OUR HEARTS. So bring on the abundant life in store for us this coming year as we prepare for the greatest journey of life to pick up Jailyn up in the Republic of China. Our hearts are open and full love for each other and Jailyn as she will be joining her forever family sooner than later.

Happy New Year and God Bless each of you who follow our journey.
We love you!

December Update!

Well another year gone by still a long wait but time did go quickly as it is December already. The Website did move to finish the month of March 2006. It moved 31 days in the year of 2009. We will see if it moves again the end of the month as it did last year. It will be interesting to see how quickly(note trying to stay positive) they move through April. Our date of June 13 is 74 days from coming up for referral. It could be a 2010 referral but more than likely a 2011 referral at this time. Optimism is high but reality is harsh. So we thank God for the blessings in our lives and celebrate the holidays with Jailyn in our hearts. We started the process to renew our documents with the govt a third time and it is in on time and moving forward. We will be fingerprinted in the coming weeks and update the home study again by April 2010. So we wait and pray.

Merry Christimas!

November Update/Thanksgiving!

Not much to update as there have been no referrals this month only word they may not come until December. Could it be H1N1 who knows? Could it be the changing of the new director for the China Adoption Affairs holding referrals up who knows? So we count our blessings and wait with patience.....We have a wonderful family and so much to be thankful for in our household. Scott is home on leave for a week and then off to Military Law school in San Diego for the Navy and then he has orders for Japan for 2 years. He is so excited and wanted to see the world and God is providing. Katie and Billy are nailing down wedding plans and the excitement is building as we approach the 10 months and counting until Oct 2, 2010, their Big Day. Katie bought her dress and her Dad and I were able to see her try it on this past weekend. It is gorgeous and we are so happy for her and Billy as they build their lives together and it has been worth the wait for them both. They are so happy.

We celebrated our Thornbury Thanksgiving yesterday. We got our Tom Turkey from the Tewes Turkey farm and Mike brined and cooked and even trained Scott in Turkey cooking Techniques. We made a day of it Bengals game they lost (boo!), Thanksgiving with our little family: Mike and his hot sausage stuffing (yummy), Katie's slammin green bean casserole, pumpkin muffins and appetizers, my awesome taters, gravy and apple caramel cheesecake. Needless to say we were stuffed and ready for a nap. However we count our blessing we could be together as Scott will not make it home for Christmas and Katie and Billy will be in Atlantic City with his folks. We are blessed and can't wait until Jailyn will join us at Thanksgiving. However that will be when China says it is time.

I have had to go through another grief period and move on with my life and get to acceptance once again of it being later not sooner. However wonderful blessings are happening everywhere I met a customer at a party who has 2 little girls from china and she has been such an encouragement and even sent me a great new book that makes me cry called Silent Tears about an american in China volunteering in the orphanages. I want more than ever to get our baby out of the orphanage sooner than later so pray we will get a young baby so she does not have to suffer long w/o us. And I have an incredible new Bible study buddy who has been another source of great encouragement. Not to mention all our wonderful friends and family who press on with us as we continue on this journey.

So pray for Jailyn, Mike and I and cherish the blessings!
Happy Thanksgiving!

Difficult reality

Okay so I have come to terms that it is either an 11 month wait if it truly speeds up to the 7 days a month moving or a 28 month wait. We are 77 days from referral. Reality in 10 months it has moved 28 days and if it continues at the snail slow pace it is truly 28 months. However I believe and must be optimistic it will be sooner than later. For my sanity I need to know the worst and best case senario at the present time. We will stall as long as possible to submit our new documents to the govt to renew the paperwork for the third time so we get the full time and use out of our paperwork. We resubmit in December and redo our homestudy early next year. The reality is tough as I never wanted to not to be able to have kids (which is not fair if I could scream it from the mountain tops!) or dreamed I would not be a mom to a little girl we thought would be with us by now. It is not not right but who ever said we are to get our way in this world. I sure have lots of questions for GOD. The fact we are not getting any younger continues to be a harsh reality but must believe God has a bigger plan. Just tough to continue on this never ending journey going into the holidays once again childless. So we count our blessings and press on.....
So PRAY!!!!!!

Referrals are coming

Rumor has it that it is moving 4 days to March 28 which is still 11 weeks until June 13 so at the very least 11 more months (if it can move 7 days at a time) however I believe it is going to be alot longer than 11 months. I want to scream. The frustration, disappointment again and again and grief continues to re-surface! Some months are easier and others terribly difficult.

Disappointed doing paperwork again!

What can we do but continue to pray without ceasing for patience and for this wait to end. I know our pain is nothing as deep as the pain of the abandonment will be for Jailyn. She does have her forever family waiting and loving her from afar. There is so much hope for the future. However it does not fill the constant void for me and the reality we still have so far to go. We are about to embark on Paperwork #3 to renew all documents for our adoption. It brings the pain of remaining the same in this journey and always in the state of wait and still childless to the surface now doing another round of paperwork and the wait getting longer. I hope she comes in 2010. My optimism only goes so far without referrals going on over a month now. Come January it is 4 long years in this journey and it ain't over. Hopefully we will get the heck out of March 2006 and move on to April 2006.

PRAY!!!!!!

October update

Well it is my favorite time of year and I love fall. There were no referrals in September and we have no idea why except the Chinese govt is on holiday this first week of October. We hope to see referrals in the coming 2 weeks and it would be great to get to April and get out of this long month March. Time continues to pass but wonderful things are happening in the lives of the Thornbury family. Katie and Billy are engaged and have the date to be married October 2, 2010. We could not be happier for them and Billy to join our family. Scott is finishing up prowler school in Seattle and will get his orders in the next 2 months. He is hoping for Japan, stay in Seattle or maybe deployed on a carrier somewhere. Mike and I had a terrific vacation to Cancun much needed and were back off to a super busy month. My Mary Kay business is rockin as we are in car qualification and will earn a new car December. Time passes and I truly believe we will have a wedding and a referral very close to each other next year. It is what it is and will be great when it gets here.

We have a blessed life and this week Mike and I celebrate our 8th wedding anniversary on October 7. I love my husband dearly and know the best is always yet to come.

Having lots of hope and faith and believe our daughter has been born or is coming to be on this earth very soon. Just have that hopeful feeling hunch in my soul......

Keep prayin and Happy Fall!
Love,