Sunday, August 28, 2011

11 weeks vs 11 months




Well we took our little getaway trip to French Lick. We spent time with friends in Newburgh, IN, on our way to French Lick and Jailyn played with Abigail and Allison and had big time fun. See the pictures of the girls playing. Then spent 2 days at the French Lick Resort. We love it there and Jailyn was pretty good in new surroundings and a little uneasy the first night and then the second was much better. She loved swimming and had fun playing in the pool on the shallow stairs. She was a big hit with all the guests and they thought she was too cute in her Tankini and so social with everyone who watched her. Our trip may have been a bit early to travel again with her still attaching and bonding with us and to change the dynamics of sleep and a new place for a few nights. She did well travelling however the last 1/2 hour of the trip she wanted out of that car seat. She amazingly enough travels very well with all things considered. She was so happy to come home and loved getting back in her routine today to play with her toys.

We have realized 11 weeks is very little time versus the 11 months with her foster mom. She is still attaching, bonding and getting closer to us and trusting we will always be there for her. We are giving love and attention and she is responsive however she must let herself feel the closeness and love which she pushes away sometimes going to bed and resisting cuddling. The fear to love and the fear to not have it taken away are very legitimate emotions she is dealing with at such a young age and will all come around with more time. It is coming......She had her first night terror last night not sure if it is the teething of her molars starting to come in or the trauma of our trip causing regression and memories of the past. She cried with big tears while sleeping for a 1/2 hour and I did not wake her however was able to hold her while she cried and tried to comfort and calm her down to know she is okay and with her momma. We were advised to not wake her if she has these night terrors as she needs to process the emotions in her sleep. It broke my heart and I cried for her too. Whatever did or did not happen in those 11 months still have impact. All the quality time together, love, prayers and holding time in with us are still in the beginning stages of our forever bond with Jailyn. We are spending the extra time at nap time and bed time to meet her needs of being there and comforting her with reassurance and words of affirmation it is okay and that we love her and will be here.

See our pictures at the West Badin Resort on the wavy couch.

We are pressing on now for 11 weeks of our journey of a lifetime with our baby girl, Jailyn. We feel truly blessed and honored with the gift of our little girl's life we share. We could not be any happier or more proud to be Jailyn's Mommy and Daddy.

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