Difficult reality

Okay so I have come to terms that it is either an 11 month wait if it truly speeds up to the 7 days a month moving or a 28 month wait. We are 77 days from referral. Reality in 10 months it has moved 28 days and if it continues at the snail slow pace it is truly 28 months. However I believe and must be optimistic it will be sooner than later. For my sanity I need to know the worst and best case senario at the present time. We will stall as long as possible to submit our new documents to the govt to renew the paperwork for the third time so we get the full time and use out of our paperwork. We resubmit in December and redo our homestudy early next year. The reality is tough as I never wanted to not to be able to have kids (which is not fair if I could scream it from the mountain tops!) or dreamed I would not be a mom to a little girl we thought would be with us by now. It is not not right but who ever said we are to get our way in this world. I sure have lots of questions for GOD. The fact we are not getting any younger continues to be a harsh reality but must believe God has a bigger plan. Just tough to continue on this never ending journey going into the holidays once again childless. So we count our blessings and press on.....
So PRAY!!!!!!

Referrals are coming

Rumor has it that it is moving 4 days to March 28 which is still 11 weeks until June 13 so at the very least 11 more months (if it can move 7 days at a time) however I believe it is going to be alot longer than 11 months. I want to scream. The frustration, disappointment again and again and grief continues to re-surface! Some months are easier and others terribly difficult.

Disappointed doing paperwork again!

What can we do but continue to pray without ceasing for patience and for this wait to end. I know our pain is nothing as deep as the pain of the abandonment will be for Jailyn. She does have her forever family waiting and loving her from afar. There is so much hope for the future. However it does not fill the constant void for me and the reality we still have so far to go. We are about to embark on Paperwork #3 to renew all documents for our adoption. It brings the pain of remaining the same in this journey and always in the state of wait and still childless to the surface now doing another round of paperwork and the wait getting longer. I hope she comes in 2010. My optimism only goes so far without referrals going on over a month now. Come January it is 4 long years in this journey and it ain't over. Hopefully we will get the heck out of March 2006 and move on to April 2006.

PRAY!!!!!!

October update

Well it is my favorite time of year and I love fall. There were no referrals in September and we have no idea why except the Chinese govt is on holiday this first week of October. We hope to see referrals in the coming 2 weeks and it would be great to get to April and get out of this long month March. Time continues to pass but wonderful things are happening in the lives of the Thornbury family. Katie and Billy are engaged and have the date to be married October 2, 2010. We could not be happier for them and Billy to join our family. Scott is finishing up prowler school in Seattle and will get his orders in the next 2 months. He is hoping for Japan, stay in Seattle or maybe deployed on a carrier somewhere. Mike and I had a terrific vacation to Cancun much needed and were back off to a super busy month. My Mary Kay business is rockin as we are in car qualification and will earn a new car December. Time passes and I truly believe we will have a wedding and a referral very close to each other next year. It is what it is and will be great when it gets here.

We have a blessed life and this week Mike and I celebrate our 8th wedding anniversary on October 7. I love my husband dearly and know the best is always yet to come.

Having lots of hope and faith and believe our daughter has been born or is coming to be on this earth very soon. Just have that hopeful feeling hunch in my soul......

Keep prayin and Happy Fall!
Love,