Well it has been another month without referrals in January as the month came to a close, however, they are coming in the first of February. Oh my stars we are at the same place we were last year moving soooooooo slow and it will only move 2 days to April 5. I can't stand it more waiting and disappointment I could scream as it continues to be prolonged.
Unless there is a dramatic change, we are into 2011. It has been 4 years since we began our adoption journey and it appears it will be well into 2011 before we can expect our referral of our little girl. It makes me sick to my stomach to think we are in for a slow year of referrals as April 5 is 69 days from June 13. Sometimes I wonder if this will ever end but that is where faith steps in.....God protect my heart and the disappointment that wells up inside. I hate this pain of remaining the same future mom to be for the past 7 years of ever trying to have a child and to become a family and Mike and I doing everything we can for me to fulfill my dream of becoming a mom by adoption from China. IT IS SO FRUSTRATING!!!!!! I CAN'T WAIT FOR THE DAY WHEN WE HAVE GOOD NEWS COMING FROM CHINA.....
Pray ..................
Frustrated and very sad 2010 is not looking hopeful.........
